One of the worst feelings in the world is when you are confronted with someone from your past and through the conversation, it becomes obvious this person still sees you as the old you. Further, it’s painful to be engaged in an experience with someone you care about, only to see they are stuck in the past and haven’t grown much over the years. I am the type of person who values self-reflection and growth and I want that for every person, as it’s life’s greatest gift to be able to see your authentic self, confront that person, work on your flaws, and grow into the next best version of you. It’s liberating, exhilarating, and the ultimate orgasm is the ability to look back and see from how far you’ve come.
It hurts my heart to be in the presence of someone who doesn’t know how awesome they are because they are stifled by the pains of their past. Pain that prohibits them from a clear vision of reality. Pain that has fermented and grown into anger that causes them to lash out against anyone who challenges their warped sense of truth. Anger that separates what is from what could be…
Although dissolution is heart-breaking, the new and improved me can’t be a part of your life right now because we are unequally yoked. This inequality will cause me to revert back to unhealthy behaviors and I refuse to move backwards because I know I deserve better, as I want nothing but the best for me. I am no better than you, we are just merely in different places right now. Maybe we will meet again in the future, maybe not. I am not who you think I am and I am saddened you can’t see that I’ve grown. Nevertheless, I wish you the best, but I am moving forward and I pray with every fiber of my being that you are able to do the same.
- At the Edge (gulshansyedmohamed.wordpress.com)
- Maybe one day (mindofconfusion.wordpress.com)
- ….We Can’t Stay Here Too Much Longer (theologyofcompassion.wordpress.com)
- Falling in Love With Pain (omtimes.com)